tha darkside of life

there comes a point wen nothing looks good anymore..all around u is dark and life is not worth living anymore..the light of life is blown off n unseen anymore..u look at a sharp knife tat has cause a light cut on ur finger and wonder how will it be like to have d same knife slit ur wrist n just watch the blood flow out of ur veins till u lose conscious..
a point wer der's no way out and no way in to another opportunity..
there's no use living life any further..is there anything left beyond this???
when ur own choose to boycott you..
other's look down at you..what more can u expect from the world..
y must life be so cruel n harsh..
d ppl tat have been by myside thru it all have now gone too far away tat i can even hear them..
it hurts so bad tat it feels like a burnt wound tat is bein stabbed n sliced as hot water is poured onto it..imagine worst than tat..tats how i feel..
like a piece of thrash tat is unwanted n bein stepped on by others..
noone understands my worries n fright but yet they judge..
wats d problem wit ppl?
will it kill them to be lil more caring?
would they lose an organ or their dignity if they took a lil more notice..
now i understand y ppl say tat dreams dun come thru..
cuz there isn't anyone to back u up..isn't anybody to hold ur hand n give u all d support u need..
we need alot of things in life..not getting them is normal.
BUT seeing them collapse,fall n crash rite in front of ur eyes is practically like committing suicide..

the joy of a vacation..

goin away from the basic everyday makes the world awesome..
just away from chores..naggin..mood swings..n everytin tat isn't nice..
just to have me time wit ppl i like..
go to a place wer noone knows me much..
wer i can be completely n totally me without giving a damn on wat ppl tink..
wether its wit frens or family it rocks in every way..
wer do i start..d food,the scenery, the ppl, customs,activities..
its all just so amazing tat u wish u could just stay der..


afta spm..went to pangkor wit parents..
had d greatest joy i found riding a jet ski in d middle of d sea..
its was so fun eventhough it was only for a day..

early february 09..
1st trip wit frens..yi wen,shao wen,eugene,yi wei,joseph,serene n jason..
d journey to cherating was so long..
left at 9pm n reached at 3.30am..stayed at chalets rite at d beach..
walked on the beach till bout 4.45am den we played cards..wen all went to sleep, yi wen n i decided to for a walk to talk n allow d waves to gently him our feet..
seafood der was so good..
ate banana canai 4 d first time der..went for body surfing but for me was more like "just try to stay on d board"..
most tragic incident also happened der tat taught me tat
1.god is d ultimate best
2.my frens r great
3.always keep valueable belongings wit u..
i left my camera n 2nd phone in d chalet room wen v went for dinner n wen we came back i couldn't find my phone n camera..i was in tears n my frens console me..they stayed up wit me til almost 3am n went to d management to ask for help..thank god tat d ppl der caught d theif n i got my stuff back but i ost my simcard but im thankful i got my newly bought camera back...
d trip der was at d end all worthwhile..v even cycled from cherating to club med to see d turtle santuary..all great fun..

few days back..went to hatyai wit my dad n uncle..
d drive was long but i had d whole back seat to myself..
so it wasn't tat bad..its a whole different atmosphere alltogetha..
its a lil cramp but the lights n colours wer fabulous..d alcohol is so cheap tat we can drink heineken all day long..seafood n tomyam der is so yummy n delicious..
shopping der is heaven..u can get anytin n everytin everywer..ppl der r friendly n full of compliments..their respect for their king is so great tat it amazed me..got a potrait of me drawn..
d few days just din seem enough..

like dey say all goood things have to come to an end..so tats all for now..

can check out pics at my facebook account:navin kaur..nav_cutedolphin@hotmail.com..