It began with overwhelming joy. Smiles that last from break to dawn and just all day long. The fact seems that we'll never be able to live without them. We could not imagine life without their presence. Even if we met all the time, when away we'll definitely find a way to communicate. Share all the tales and everything we had till there were no differences. Life was incomplete without each other.
But then again noone is indispensable.
From completely no space between us to the fact that a whale could pass in the gap at the middle.
How life can turn out sometimes is totally astonishing.
What happened to the promises we made over a cup of coffee madras style?
The bond we shared was not a passing cloud for me. I realise and admit that i have more flaws than an average person. I accept that i can be very impossible to have to be dealt with but that is sometimes just the way i am. I know when some have to choose, I'll never be the choice they make as i am of no use. I've learnt that they hard way. So probably that is the reason i back away before the option of choosing arises.
Then once i back away it just proves that i was unwanted in that circle. it made no difference whether i was absent or present. everything goes on as usual. smiles and laughter continue just without me there. with time passing by, I'll definitely be forgotten.
You will move on forgetting I've even existed and i tried to do so but its impossible as we in a way took each breath together. it hurts to just sit and press the play button in my mind to refresh all the treasureable moments we had once upon a time with pictures as our witness.
I miss those moments.
I'm sorry i cant be perfect.
