Once big Now small

i've always been tall from a very young age.
all throughout primary school i beat the whole class.
but in secondary school there were one two who beat me.
but it was all good.
when i went to college even the guys were my height if not shorter.
then in uni things looked alright.
the guys were taller than the girls.
it all evens out.

as a young person who was amused by loving couples,
i imagined to have a tall lean average partner.
did not have to be superbly good looking cause i'm ok ok myself.

little did i know that i'll get a extremely tall sleek very cute other half.
a total giant that made me look like a midget.
and i'm loving it.
and the best part is i don't look fat next to him.
lol.

UNWANTED AND FORGOTTEN

It began with overwhelming joy. Smiles that last from break to dawn and just all day long. The fact seems that we'll never be able to live without them. We could not imagine life without their presence. Even if we met all the time, when away we'll definitely find a way to communicate. Share all the tales and everything we had till there were no differences. Life was incomplete without each other.

But then again noone is indispensable.

From completely no space between us to the fact that a whale could pass in the gap at the middle.

How life can turn out sometimes is totally astonishing.

What happened to the promises we made over a cup of coffee madras style?

The bond we shared was not a passing cloud for me. I realise and admit that i have more flaws than an average person. I accept that i can be very impossible to have to be dealt with but that is sometimes just the way i am. I know when some have to choose, I'll never be the choice they make as i am of no use. I've learnt that they hard way. So probably that is the reason i back away before the option of choosing arises.

Then once i back away it just proves that i was unwanted in that circle. it made no difference whether i was absent or present. everything goes on as usual. smiles and laughter continue just without me there. with time passing by, I'll definitely be forgotten.

You will move on forgetting I've even existed and i tried to do so but its impossible as we in a way took each breath together. it hurts to just sit and press the play button in my mind to refresh all the treasureable moments we had once upon a time with pictures as our witness.

I miss those moments.

I'm sorry i cant be perfect.

WAVES

Life aint always perfect smooth sailing.
the longest and most vital parts are filled with waves.
some waves may be tiny ticklish that cause a little humour
some are totally without effect,harmless.
whereas some are hard and harsh,
strong enough to rock and wreck your boat.

Then i sit down and wonder did i invite that wave?

Was it me that mentally wrecked my boat when it was not even rocked?

How come i am alone without support in my boat?

Should i get a crew or can i survive solo?

Just figuring out the answers would case my boat to age and decay.

Then again what matters most is the ride.
While thinking and reflecting on my boat, i can try to enjoy the journey.
Only i can make myself THE HAPPY CAPTAIN.

STUPID CAT

how a cat can be so stupid i'll never know.
as it is they are the most arrogant and unbothered creatures next to humans
BUT yet that is not enough.
some of them just have to make a statement.
unlucky for me,one of that kind is in my house,
mother's cat whisky boy,



and this what he did to me,

out of no where he decided to make me his victim when i was quietly watchin tv,he felt that my planter surface of my sole was too bare so he gave me a love mark there.

how sweet of him!!!

Life is more meaningful now

3 people,

from different walks of life,

never knew the existence of one another before,

never had an instinct that they would cross each other's path,

never realised they would touch each others hearts,

never thought they would mean so much to each other,

never the idea had come to their mind that they would stand by each other till the end.


That is the story of when i joined my medical school and made new friends.
Some friends are just for formalities while others are there to stay in your heart forever.

the bond form in such a short time is so amazing that it feels like a shot of energy start to my head that gives me a drive to strive for better cause i know if it goes right i have succeed i would have them to celebrate and if the opposite outcome that i didn't expect to occur,they i have their shoulder to pour out my grieve.

i know they'll always have my back.

they'll be the reason i would start my day with a smile on my face.

probably the best thing that has ever happened to me.

lazy bum bum...

indeed that has always been me.
never doubted it that i can be easily be awarded the laziest bum on earth!

a person who is discriminant towards race is racist,
a person who is discriminant towards age is ageist,
a person who is discriminant towards gender is sexist,
a person who is discriminant towards color is colorist,
I simply am a person who is discriminant towards her priorities.

exams are in exactly two days and yet i cant figure out what i have studied and what i have yet to.
few days ago i've already realize how close my finals are but yet that lazy bone of mine just does not want to give in. it is stubborn to continue on relax mode and taking for granted that all iz well.

we'll just have to wait and see how exams go and what results will be like all in a few weeks.

FYI time flies!!!!

i guess its over...

all it took him was ONE sms saying that "we're just friends from now on"

the first thing that came into my mind: WTF????

i realize that it ought to happen sooner or later but this is just toooooo abrupt.

i know we had our issues but come on it was only about the fact that i can look after myself when im down with a cold..

looks like you are as sensitive as you seemed to be.

life is hard. no one said it'll be easy but they definitely guaranteed that it'll be worth it.

times with you were good. i'll never regret anything that we did together. in fact i'll probably treasure our memories together.

it was good while it lasted. like a loved one said "hoped you learnt your lesson"

i think i finally did.