how careless....

my exams for the semester are going on..
before my third paper begins, while writing my exam index number i just glance at my exam docket to check if i am writing it correctly. my sense was right, i had written my last two digits wrongly...it should be 31 but i wrote 13.. . then i thought to myself that i have most probably written that number wrongly for my other two papers before this.damn!!!

how could i be so careless????

one malaysia

=)

a malay girl with her rice and chicken,
a punjabi girl with her capati and dal.

both in one room,
on the floor,
eating and feeding each other.

6months ago we were strangers but now we're practically SOULMATES!!!
we kinda do everything together.
eventhough she is half my size but we fit each other's clothes.

we may be from different walks of life but that doesn't stop us form being US.
without saying a word, we can read each others thoughts.
thats practically the coolest thing that i can do with her.

being soulmates and so close to each other doesn't mean that we have to get married..
(hell NO)
but i know for sure she's a person i'll never forget.
in fact she's my first follower!

now thats what i call ONE MALAYSIA!!

for the first time...

last nite,

for the first time in my life,

i shaved a person's head.

INDEED I DID...

what: shaved a head till 12mm

why: cuz i was fed up of his messy long hair.

where: in segi college cafe

how: with aliyu's shaver

who: deen

when : 6th december,~11.30pm

AND i am proud of the results even though he doesn't like it =p

RELIGION vs LOVE

choose now!!

is that even a question?
its obvious i'll choose my religion.

why....
-thats how i grew up
-it dwells in my heart, mind and soul.
-it is in my every breathe
-it bonds me to my parents and family
-its my way of life
-THAT IS WHO I AM.

even when everyone else leaves me,
when i have no one,
at the moment life fails me,
i always have HIM.
how can i even think of abandoning him when he is always by myside.
who am i trying to kid?
the great guy above who knows everything.
i will never be able to face him if i do this betrayal to him.

would i ever be forgiven if i can even think of leaving him?

the verdict: i'll never leave my religion

sophisticated

tats life in general

but now my life is no where near that.
my life probably doesn't even have that word in my dictionary of life.

WHY????
simply because all i have to do is;
*study well
*pray
*play
*live
*SLEEP
*breathe

that's simple aint it..
then why complicate it..
=)

wen everytin fails..

at some point in life there will always be a feeling that something has gone wrong..

your friends turn their back on you,
talking without hesitation about you,
your subjects haunt you cause you dont get it and you've got a cgpa to reach.
your close one has better things to do'
the person who gave you life cant hear your tears as she slams the phone thinking your being rude by not talking properly on the phone,
people around you dont see your red eyes..

but be thankful that at that time there was nobody in the girl's washroom.

you look in to the mirror and try to stand up straight and pull yourself together.
then it suddenly hit me.
why am i so affected by what people say.
they are just merely a small part or a passing phase in my life.
who are they to decide to run me down and make my life hard.
why should i be at their mercy?
the only people who rules me is GOD.

at that point you realise that you are not alone.
He is always by your side.
He might not give you a tissue to clear your tears but...
He'll definitely take the pain away..

time is sprinting!!!

after two weeks of havin fun, i came to college to start my second sem..
it was normal..classes four days a week, 4hours a day..
NOT STRESSFUL at ALL!!!!
den came a week of raya holidays..
den bout two weeks later diwali holidays..
den just normal fun weekends came,said hi and left..
mondays to thursdays pass by so fast tat i hardly get to give them proper greetings..
week by week past by like trees passing you on the highway as daddy exceeds the speed limit..
sssSSSssssHHHhhhhh....
our class would have a weekful of test den back to relaxin..
time passed just like tat in d year 'almost' end mood..
before i knew it i was standing in the faculty office with a notice on the table staring me in the face..
My EXAM Timetable!!!
shit...exams in two weeks..
i mean finals...
damn..
how did time fly faster then any jet i know..
anyway,
i have no choice but just to face it =p

he was der!!!

it was d first time i was traveling alone!!!

it indeed was scary but i gathered all my guts and sat on the bus seat waiting to start my journey back home..

it was then i realized tat i was not alone..

God was with me..

my guardian who sat next to me throughout the two and a half hours..

he got the indian guy tat was sitting next to me to move away..

he got the guy to move his drink tat was hitting the back of my seat..

he got the driver to speedup so that i could reach faster..

luv him d most when he got the driver to stop at the rest area so i could pee..

he was there with me..

GOD ROCKS!!! =)

love at first sight

wit d fourth week comin to an end pretty soon i tot i shud blog bout it now..

finally afta finishin high skul months ago,i've moved on to study at segi college to begin my journey,d stepping stone to my future career..pre-med for a year at tis place..

at first it was horrible!!!

i mean literally hell..orientation took ages..hostels witout lift!! common toilets n bathroom..eeeww..room on d highest floor not forgettin how small they are..arghhh.. 

my room at first seemed like hell cuz it was so messy but then things turned around wen i met my roommates for d very first time..they're seniors..really cool ppl..one has a boyfren in d opposite buildin,so typical movie scene..haha...then there was they midnite visit wit their guy frens wer they wanted to introduce their new roommate aka me!!!

it was d first time tat i'm meetin soooo many guys in such conditions..they look so different n cute in a way..but d cutest of them was d one tat came out all cool but den run in wen d guys teased him wit me..sayin he's lookin for my kinda gurl..den afta a while he came out actin kinda shy n slowly talkin to me n then tat was it..

we went to all our respectively rooms n day ova or may i just say just begun...

i kinda had a crush on him..but den he just disappeared!!

n classes begun den it was back to studyin n all..

headaches tagged along wit quizzes n assignments..

n nosight of mr cute..its like he wasnt bothered n seems like he doesn't exist..

den a reli awkward health issue wit a skinny biatch made us have a kinda meetin..

but yet he doesn't seem to notice me!!!pain..

but then it slowly begin n it went from plain frens to a romantic almost couple..

he's different from othas..he's almost perfect but den der has to be the religion issues..

y must der always be a twist in d luv story..n cant it be more like the series of little black dress series..all the juicy nice details n things get fr bad to worst n den suddenly completely perfect.

its how life should be!!! 

is tat too much to ask???

=)

<3

tha darkside of life

there comes a point wen nothing looks good anymore..all around u is dark and life is not worth living anymore..the light of life is blown off n unseen anymore..u look at a sharp knife tat has cause a light cut on ur finger and wonder how will it be like to have d same knife slit ur wrist n just watch the blood flow out of ur veins till u lose conscious..
a point wer der's no way out and no way in to another opportunity..
there's no use living life any further..is there anything left beyond this???
when ur own choose to boycott you..
other's look down at you..what more can u expect from the world..
y must life be so cruel n harsh..
d ppl tat have been by myside thru it all have now gone too far away tat i can even hear them..
it hurts so bad tat it feels like a burnt wound tat is bein stabbed n sliced as hot water is poured onto it..imagine worst than tat..tats how i feel..
like a piece of thrash tat is unwanted n bein stepped on by others..
noone understands my worries n fright but yet they judge..
wats d problem wit ppl?
will it kill them to be lil more caring?
would they lose an organ or their dignity if they took a lil more notice..
now i understand y ppl say tat dreams dun come thru..
cuz there isn't anyone to back u up..isn't anybody to hold ur hand n give u all d support u need..
we need alot of things in life..not getting them is normal.
BUT seeing them collapse,fall n crash rite in front of ur eyes is practically like committing suicide..

the joy of a vacation..

goin away from the basic everyday makes the world awesome..
just away from chores..naggin..mood swings..n everytin tat isn't nice..
just to have me time wit ppl i like..
go to a place wer noone knows me much..
wer i can be completely n totally me without giving a damn on wat ppl tink..
wether its wit frens or family it rocks in every way..
wer do i start..d food,the scenery, the ppl, customs,activities..
its all just so amazing tat u wish u could just stay der..


afta spm..went to pangkor wit parents..
had d greatest joy i found riding a jet ski in d middle of d sea..
its was so fun eventhough it was only for a day..

early february 09..
1st trip wit frens..yi wen,shao wen,eugene,yi wei,joseph,serene n jason..
d journey to cherating was so long..
left at 9pm n reached at 3.30am..stayed at chalets rite at d beach..
walked on the beach till bout 4.45am den we played cards..wen all went to sleep, yi wen n i decided to for a walk to talk n allow d waves to gently him our feet..
seafood der was so good..
ate banana canai 4 d first time der..went for body surfing but for me was more like "just try to stay on d board"..
most tragic incident also happened der tat taught me tat
1.god is d ultimate best
2.my frens r great
3.always keep valueable belongings wit u..
i left my camera n 2nd phone in d chalet room wen v went for dinner n wen we came back i couldn't find my phone n camera..i was in tears n my frens console me..they stayed up wit me til almost 3am n went to d management to ask for help..thank god tat d ppl der caught d theif n i got my stuff back but i ost my simcard but im thankful i got my newly bought camera back...
d trip der was at d end all worthwhile..v even cycled from cherating to club med to see d turtle santuary..all great fun..

few days back..went to hatyai wit my dad n uncle..
d drive was long but i had d whole back seat to myself..
so it wasn't tat bad..its a whole different atmosphere alltogetha..
its a lil cramp but the lights n colours wer fabulous..d alcohol is so cheap tat we can drink heineken all day long..seafood n tomyam der is so yummy n delicious..
shopping der is heaven..u can get anytin n everytin everywer..ppl der r friendly n full of compliments..their respect for their king is so great tat it amazed me..got a potrait of me drawn..
d few days just din seem enough..

like dey say all goood things have to come to an end..so tats all for now..

can check out pics at my facebook account:navin kaur..nav_cutedolphin@hotmail.com..